R.I.P Cory Monteith

I hate to be writing a blog under such tragic and sad circumstances.  Sadly on Saturday July 13th 2013 the world lost a sweet soul.. Actor Cory Montieth who played Finn Hudson on Glee was found dead in his Hotel room at the Fairmount Pacific Rim in Vancouver. 

We don't know how he died yet but I am sure the world is waiting to find out.  Cory struggled with Substance abuse since he was 16 years old and those demons are hard to fight. It will be closure for some when the pieces of what really happened leading up to his tragic death at least we will know

One of the most heartbreaking things is when the Vancouver police officer said he died alone in his hotel room.  Sometimes I wish someone was there.. anyone.  Housekeeping, a friend, his agent.  Just anyone.  Maybe he could have been saved.  But to die alone that makes me so sad.  I wonder did he go through pain before he died?? did he try to call someone??  It is probably the worst thing in the world feeling what he felt then dying.. with no one.  No last goodbyes or I love yous to his girlfriend or friends or family. 

Video shows him going into his room at around 2:30am and between that time and 12pm when he was supposed to check out he died The hotel staff that found him said he had been dead for several hours.  What happened in that time? I know you usually have to go by the front desk when you go to your room did any staff see anything weird??  Someone should have been with him.

I didn't know Cory but from what I read he was so humble and never let fame get to his head. He was one of the good ones, and I guess through Glee we all felt we knew him.  It is so hard to believe he is gone and we wont see him on TV anymore.  HE was only 31 years old. Parents are not supposed to bury their children and I cannot even imagine what pain they feel trying to grasp that their son is not here. 

One thing however that bothers me is the small tidbit of Cory's "Friends while he was in Vancouver that week. He checked into the hotel on July 6th with Lea back in LA from what I read his friends were not really his friends.  When you know someone is STRUGGLING with substance abuse you don't give them a beer. I don't know it makes me mad.  Maybe he thought he could handle it but he just came out of rehab the wound was still fresh and given the push  he prob thought  it would not affect him if he just did it once.  or twice.  We do know he partied at 2 nightclubs on the Friday and before that the "friends" were in his hotel room.  I also read this:


"Corey went back to Vancouver many times, and hung out with many of the friends who helped fuel his addiction. We're told alcohol and drugs were always involved. "

If this is true You people who call yourselves friends should be ASHAMED of yourself.  and feel Guilty as FUCK cause you killed your friend you killed Cory because you were not friends at all you were selfless idiots who didn't help him and I hope you live with that burden for the rest of your life.  Now I know they didn't shove whatever down his throat but still if the items were not in front of him the temptation would not be there. And they knew he went to rehab like seriously!!! 

I guess I cant be too outraged until we find out everything that happened.  Maybe there were no illegal drugs maybe it was prescription BUT that mixed with Alcohol could have killed him and again  if he had a taste it was all downhill from there. 

I will miss you Mr Montieth make sure you become Lea's angel because you took her heart when you died.  she will need you to wrap your wings around her and tell her everything will be OK.  And the world will miss your adorable smile, giving spirit, kind soul, and humbleness. Heaven is lucky to have you make sure you keep singing up there and every time we see your past performances on Glee we will know what a treat heaven has with them.  There will be a hole in our hearts forever. We lost a wonderful man too soon

RIP Cory Montieth

Hopes/ Dreams and Goals

 Hi All!!

You have all read about some of my favorite things , but today being the first official day of Summer I decided to write about some of my Hopes and Dreams and share them with everyone. 

First one day I would love to be a resident in New York City, preferably Perry Street I love New york the Culture the Jazz music the food just everything and one day I am gonna live there. 

Besides living in NYC one day another one of my hopes is to get the book I am currently getting edited Published one day. Once I get an agent I will share details

Next to that one of my biggest dreams in the entire world is to become an actress one day.  I love acting being able to portray someone else and bring them to life and have that be your job.  That is the ultimate for me.  I have never done anything major but have been in Drama and musical theatre my whole life.. But man is it ever hard. There are millions of people that want the same thing you do.  To make it in Hollywood..... It is like the same odds as winning the lottery but if it is your time it is your time. 

My biggest inspiration is all those people who were just like me then they just auditioned for a role they were not A list, they didn't have an agent, but someone believed in them and gave them a chance.  That is what I hold as hope for me. That someone will believe in me and give me that chance. 

On the same note another big dream that ties in with being an actress is getting the Role of Ana Steele in the Fifty Shades of Grey Movie.  Yes I am putting it out there.  For one I wouldn't care how much they paid me I just wanna play her so bad!  and they wont have to deal with high maintenance because I am far from high maintenance I would just be so happy as a pig in shit to have the role.  Anyone on the FSOG movie team you can contact me give me a shot for an audition at least I wont disappoint!!! To some I just look like  a stupid girl reaching for the impossible but nothing is impossible if you want it bad enough. And I just want to say to all those people who say I would be too Old I say this

It has been going on in hollywood for years older actors playing younger roles please look at this link http://www.empireonline.com/features/older-actors-playing-young-roles/ so there!  its not about Age it is how you portray the role.

I dont think a role should be based on how old someone is.So there. 

Another one of my goals would be to travel Europe: Rome, Venice, Paris, London, Germany, Sweden all theses places have history and beauty to them that I would love to see with my own eyes by actually being there and seeing their culture. 

So there are a few of my Big dreams I hope everyone that has a big dream makes it into a reality!

:)

  

Man of Steel Review

So Yesterday I took my dad to see Man of Steel as a Fathers Day Treat.  The move stars Henry Cavill as Superman, Russel Crow as Jor-el Kevin Costner and Diane Lane as Mr and Mrs Kent and Amy Adams Lois Lane. 

Let me start by saying that this movie was anticipated by many.  Me as well not only because I wanted to see this:

Or this:

I was actually looking forward to a GOOD Superman film. With a good story. Sadly as hot and sexy and delicious as Henry Cavill is the plot sucked.  It was all over the place and it never really connected, way to much back and forth and way too much focus on all the CGI special effects... which were cool but really I didn't spend money just to watch 2 fight scenes and buildings collapsing. Also the interaction with Lois Lane and Superman was weird I don't know they were like friends so fast after only one meeting and suddenly she is the love of his life?? 

It starts on Planet Krypton and it seems that the planet is falling apart and is in the midst of being destroyed.  Faora-Ul is then giving birth to Kal-el the first natural birth in Krypton in years which seemed to be a big deal and Jor-el know that his son was special and had to save him before the whole planet blew up so he steals some sort of key and gets ready to ship his son to earth in some kind of pod.  Cue the bad dude who comes in and says they have to stop this.  The mom finally presses the launch button and off Kal-el goes to earth. 

The next part we see a fishing boat and a glimpse of the yummy all grown up Kal-el AKA Clark Kent who is not using his name.  This was confusing because it just jumped to his adulthood and him saving a bunch of people in a tower that was on fire.   NO reference saying PRESENT DAY or anything.  Then he is in the water and he starts having flashbacks and we see a young Clark but still no reference on how the parents found him. 

After the back and forth from youth to adulthood we meet Lois lane she is in the Arctic somewhere doing a story when she captures Superman on camera going somewhere so she follows him into this weird maze.  We see Clark have some interaction with his real dad Jor-El and in 5 min he is brought up to speed about who he really is blah blah blah.  of course Lois gets herself into shit by being nosy and Clark comes and saves her and she is amazed by his super strength.

Then we see her go back and open a can of worms and butt into his life to find out who his is by doing some investigating.  she ends up at Clarks dads (his earth dad's) grave and superman appears he seems trust worthy of Lois who he met for mere minutes and tells her everything about him. 

Then we find out the bad dudes are coming apparently there were frozen and sent to a black hole but that all changed when Krypton blew up  so they come to earth saying give up superman or else.  HE does the noble thing and surrenders but of course they want Lois too. so she goes with Clark on the evil dudes ship.  While on the ship Superman becomes weak. you would think we would be introduced to Kryptonite which is supposed to be the only thing that weakens superman but apparently being on a weird ship makes him weak as well.  Lois in the mean time is thrown into some room where she sees a key slot which matches something that Superman gave her once they got on the ship so she inserts it and Jor-el appears telling her he knows the way to stop the bad dudes and he will tell her how.  so then he leads her into a pod of some sort and she launches out of the ship and superman is back to normal because  JOr-el has altered something so he can be strong so they fight and he saves Lois blah blah

So this bad dude came to earth because he wants to make the new Krypton and bring back his people but what he doesn't know is that Jor-el embedded what he needed in a secret place  so he decides to destroy earth and launches 2 big ships that land one in downtown Smallville one in some ocean.  then it starts basically sucking everything up then throwing it down.. cue the special effects and the buildings collapsing. First big fight commences alot of throwing people around eventually the bad people go to the ship again. 

a few fillers and kisses between Lois and superman then she tells him how to put the bad people into the black whole and they attempt it while superman goes to the other hub in the ocean he stops it which stops the other ship which allows them to send the bad dudes to the vortex of nothing well most of them the leader managed to escape and then him and superman duke it out for a long time smashing and bringing down more buildings 

After a too long and boring fight all is right with the world.  and the next scene Superman is with his earth mom telling her he is going to find a job where he can blend in so we see him going into the elevator of the daily planet and putting on his glasses and being introduced to everyone including Lois who seems to have NO idea who his is like WTF dude is just wearing glasses she like sucked face with him and looked into his dreamy eyes so many times in the movie and she has NO idea who he is??  BAH!! 

Too much special effects not enough story at all.  They touched on some things but never fully explained them.  and honestly after a while it got boring it was 2 and a half hours and it seems they had to drag it out just so they can get to the blowing up of buildings etc. 

My rating  well 10 out of 10 for the super hot sexy Henry Cavil and all the scenes that showed of his chiseled body

3 out of 10 for the movie itself. Ladies if you want to gather the girls for  2hours of eye candy then I recommend seeing this film you wont be disappointed in that sense at all 

I hear through the grapevine that a second movie has already been confirmed lets hope next time they focus more on the plot



Happy Birthday to Me!

Well today is an Epic Day!  Why you ask??  Because it is my Birthday!

Now I am lucky, very lucky. Why?? Well because on my birthday today I have already received the best gift ever. And it was free. It is Love. Love from my family and friends that was sent my way today. Love from my beautiful Nieces Arianne and Anneka and my Nephews’ Ryan and the newest addition. My other little Nephew Lucas who just came into this world on Monday. What better gift can you get then hearing the phone ring and their little voices singing happy birthday into it. Trust me it is the best feeling


Now If by some magical chance a genie came up to me and told me that I could have ANYTHING for my birthday and that aside from my wonderful family and friends they wanted to grant me something well and I HAD to choose it would be simple to meet this man:

I know, I know it is a dream right but today it is a extra special dream because it is my Birthday. Shemar Moore the decadent Treat that is the perfect man. Sweet, caring, follows his fans on Twitter, is super talented and gorgeous to boot. I have never really had a dream come true. Most of my birthday's have pretty much been disasters like all of the milestone ones like my Grandpa died of cancer in January of the year of my 16th birthday, my 18th birthday somehow got missed, my 21st birthday invites were sent out but no one came, So it has been pretty harsh. Maybe Ellen will read this on Twitter I know she has like a billion followers but she COULD read it?? And if Shemar is ever on her show I could possibly meet him?? I think Ellen would be my genie. She is awesome like that. She surprises people and makes them so happy. That is just awesome she truly is the birthday dream come true person. Hey even seats if he was on her show would be beyond amazing because I am a super huge fan of Ellen too so it would be like the ultimate. I haven’t had a huge dream come true like others I have seen on her show. I don’t know what it feels like but judging from the tears of Joy, and the jaw droppings I can imagine that it feels pretty awesome. Hey I can try right chances of actually getting to meet him probably like winning the lottery but as long as you wish you have that hope of it coming true right?? If it did it would be the best 36th birthday ever. But she gets letters everyday and I know there are people far more deserving of wishes coming true, I just would love this so I know that if you wish hard enough your dreams can come true and I know it is a superficial thing wanting to meet an Actor but you have no idea what a huge deal it is to me. I would get to experience the feeling of pure happiness and enjoyment and do something for myself which I never do.

Anyway there is my rant. Here is to the best Birthday Ever.

A terrible Week in the US

AS many of you have read and watched there have been horrific things happening in the US.  A Boston Marathon Bombing and an explosion at a Texas plant all within the same week. 

The Boston Marathon bombing breaks my heart. It pains me to know that Americans cant feel safe anywhere. In school,  going to a movie, running a marathon.  All those people those innocent people who were running or cheering on their families not thinking how their life would change in the hours that followed at the finish line where the bomb went off then seconds later a few blocks down another one.  hundreds injured 3 beautiful innocent lives lost...one being only 8 years old.  His life cut short way to soon.  All because two people decided they wanted to inflict evil and pain on people who did NOTHING to them.  It make you sick to think about it.  Why we have to look at pictures of Boston and it looks like a war zone. 

Yes innocent people die everyday all over the world .  We see it everyday in the news.  hundreds upon hundreds of innocent people being killed when riding the bus, a train, getting groceries.  It happens so much that it is sadly almost like a regular thing in some places??  And why why do these people target the innocent??  It is because they are angry at someone in power and they want to make a statement or this is the way they prove loyalty to their leader.  It just is so sad what goes on there.  Those countries are Messed up.  But we don't live like that in the US that is not our day to day.  So when the violence is brought over here we don't stand for it. Our country will not get ripped apart because YOU want it to be.  We are not a war zone country and we deal with our issues differently.  Yes we have messed up people everywhere but bombings are not the regular here. Neither are flying planes into twin towers and ruining peoples lives.  We don't make a statement that way. 

Needless to say Lives have been changed forever. People who could walk a few days ago no longer can. their world has changed forever Their lives will never be the same and my prayers are with them. 

Drunk Driving Story

I saw a story on the news this weekend about a man who was riding his bike and got killed because an idiot decided to drink and drive.  The cyclist was obeying the traffic signals when this jack ass got off the 401 at Kennedy and ran the red light striking the cyclist and throwing him from his bike.  But it didn't stop there previous to this the loser in the Doge durango Hit a car LEFT the scene and went on the highway. It is clear he had no regard for anyone around him.  he was on a path of destruction.  after the cyclist he his several other cars. he could have killed and ruined more innocent lives but from what I read no one else was killed but they were injured. And this asshole walks away alive. with no injuries.  It makes me livid.  Seriously why in these drunk driving cases the Drunk driver remains alive while he/she ruins lives around them.  Maybe it is gods punishment so they can live with the guilt look and face the families that you ruined because you were not thinking. 

Stop drinking and driving innocent people should not die for your stupidity

This is a serious issue

Over the past 3 days I have read 2 stories of 2 young beautiful girls committing suicide after some losers decided it would be "cool" to rape them and take pictures of it and post them online.  Or maybe they thought it was funny....

Well was it funny when these 2 girls took their own lives because they were humiliated after seeing pictures of themselves being taken advantage of and raped online??  No I don't think so.

Are these "Boys" proud of themselves?? are they proud that because of their actions 2 girls took their own lives.  And what about the rest of the students all those who participated in the mocking and bullying calling them names like Slut.  You should all be ashamed of yourselves. Someone should have stood up for them someone should have said that this was wrong and done something.  What is wrong with youth today when a young girl is raped by a bunch of sick bastards and it is viewed as funny

Because of your immaturity 2 sets of parents don't have their little girl anymore. you stole their future, their will to live, their humanity.  Because of you their dad's will never get to see them graduate, see them off to college, walk them down the isle, have a grandchild.  Because of you there will be no birthdays, no Christmas's and Family dinners. 

A few weeks ago two idiots were charged with the rape of a 16 year old girl . They did the same thing they posted a photo of it online and again thought it was funny.  Because these boys were star athletes they didn't want them to be charged.  but they were charged as juveniles and they cried like children.  But I don't feel any sympathy for you.  Your tears mean nothing you are only crying because now you have to go to jail for what you did.  I wish it was adult prison then you would see the harsh reality of your actions... not so funny anymore is it?? 

 I have something to say to these "Boys" One stupid decision can ruin your life forever and not just yours your stupid decision ruins families I hope you have a sister. If you do I want you to take a good look at her and ask yourself how you would feel if your found out what happened to these girls happened to her. How would you feel if you went to her room or bathroom and found that she hung herself because she was being tormented because she was violated.  Think about that

 RIP Audrie Pott and Rehtaeh Parsons